Breathe.

“Tic… Toc…Tic…Toc…” I’ve been listening this for months now repeatedly like a bad cliche song stuck in my head. As I plead to god to give you more time. I hate you cancer. You hateful, horrible disease. It is insanity; it’s unbelievable, How this cancer struck her hard and fast, I wasn’t even given time to…

Confesiones.

Si mañana muriera quisiera dejar plasmadas algunas ideas que hoy aprendí. Pido perdón a mis padres, por conocerme muy poco y no dejar que me conozcan, por ocultarme constantemente las cosas, por miedo a decepcionarles. Hubiera querido ser su hija perfecta y al menos ocultando mis imperfecciones lo era. Quisiera decirle a mi mejor amiga…

Suppositions.

You’re not reading this, but I’m still in love with you. I tried hiding it when we were walking. I didn’t want to scare you. I guess I said we could be friends, but looking at your face is like drilling holes in my lungs and reading your words makes all of my limbs ache….

Catch me.

I’m falling again And nobody wants to pick me up. Since summer, We are just avoiding each other. You’re avoiding me. Slipping through my fingers I could’ve had you, But I was too late. Now we’re just strangers, Again.

Expect nothing, live happily.

This is why you should never, ever, get your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you aren’t as devastated. Thinking the things that made me grow up the most was going through the things I couldn’t talk about and when no one…

Technology in desperate times.

What a blessing it is to live in the age of snapchat and instant messages because it is hot as hell this morning and I would get fried waiting outside for the indifferent postman and a letter from you- and sunburn ain’t cute. So thank goodness for FaceTime and Skype we can have our conversations…

It’s not all mere physical.

He showed me that love isn’t just a mere physical presence of one another. He showed me that love means deep conversations at 2 am with silly talks in between. It is the comfortable silence we shared when we do our own things like me being on tumblr and him playing GTA. Love is when…

Timing is a b*tch.

I need to stop being in love with the ideas of what could have been. We could have slowly inched closer and held each other a little tighter. We could have laughed a little harder and fallen in love some more. There are so many things that could have happened, but didn’t. We almost were….

Internationals.

I told you I didn’t want to get emotionally attached. You said you couldn’t blame me. In two months I will be kissing for the last time the European boy. In the heart of Nicaragua, not giving you a second thought. I’ll be stuck here, culminating my high school. Yet again you said you couldn’t…

R a y s.

Your friendship has brought glorious technicolor to my life. It’s been there even in the darkest times and I am the luckiest person alive for that gift. I hope I didn’t take it for granted … I think maybe I did. Because sometimes you don’t see that the best thing that’s ever happened to you…